On the Porch
Onisha Ellis
On my best day, I am not a morning person. I joke that if I was supposed to be up and active early, then why do most malls open at 10 am? This morning, in the drifting time between awake and dozing, (hoping my husband was up and getting the coffee made) I realized the awful feeling of not wanting to get up and face another day was creeping back into my soul. It seems the wonderful vacation with friends last week had been a respite but not a fix. I began to silently pray for friends on my prayer list as they came to mind, and then flowed into examining why I was feeling despair.
I remembered the resentment that had flared in my heart the previous day of issues I believed I had long since forgiven, and though my husband and I laughed about my outburst, still my words were 
hurtful. Waking from another short dozing session, my mind painted pictures of the consequences of words. One scene was pretty and my hurtful words were flowing up to God leaving my heart joyful. In the other scene Satan was like an NFL running back, ready to receive those words, tuck them firmly under his arm and run for the touchdown, wrecking havoc along the way. Not a pretty scene at all but it did prepare my heart for the morning devotional I read from “Jesus Calling”.
Seek to please Me above all else. Let that goal be your focal point as you go through this day. Such a mind-set will protect you from scattering your energy to the winds. The free will I bestowed on you comes with awesome responsibility. Each day presents you with choice after choice. Many of these decisions you ignore and thus make by default. Without a focal point to guide you, you can easily lose your way. That’s why it is so important to stay in communication with Me, living in thankful awareness of My Presence. From Jesus Calling by Sarah Young
I am choosing joy, now I am off to bake a glazed pumpkin pound cake!
Old Things R New 
A great heartfelt blog today, chock full of honesty, transparency and wisdom. Thanks for sharing and for the Jesus Calling thoughts, especially the ones about free will (our Gift from God) and scattering our energy to the winds (wow! it’s so hard to not do that some times :). Enjoy your yummy cake!
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Thanks for stopping by, Pam. It surely is hard to not scatter our energy, especially since I am still pretending to take my vitamins!
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Refreshingly candid. Enjoyed. M-m-m,, yumm. save me a piece of that cake!
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How about if I eat a piece of cake in your honor?
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